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Felt so "in-the-dumps" when i came back from papa meeting tonight. Then, I reached my doorstep, rummaged through my messy bag for the keys, looked up and saw a mistletoe hanging on the door. Must be Ms Roomie, Seow Si Min. I guess the act didn't mean anything, but I felt so much better after I saw it. It suddenly feels like Christmas.
I guess, it's because of the huge contrast. I was walking along orchard road before the papa meeting, and I saw the glimmering lights, the beautiful displays, and all I could think of was what to report for my omy article. It's so pathetic that I couldn't feel the Christmas deep down in my heart, because I usually do. (And they don't believe Santa Claus exists, hahahaha)
On my return trip on bus 199, I cried a little. It feels a bit like the bouts of depression I had during those campcraft training days. When I leaned on Yuan's shoulders and cried, when I started alternately laughing and crying. It was the same feeling. Coz I looked through the pub schedule and all my schedules for december and january, and discovered that everything wasn't in place, at least not where I want it to be. Unless I can split myself into two. It wasn't even the case that I was busy all the time, it was the problem that I can't be two place at the same time that's causing the headaches. When I went to Junfeng's room just now, I told him a little about how I couldn't fit boggle trainings into my schedule, and he told me to not go for some of the matches so I could train. I reached my room, thought for a while "Hey, that's a reasonable idea." But then, I thought, if I had the time off from the matches, my first priority would be to upload photos, do my omy report, write articles, and do papa planning. Shucks. So screwed.
And, I seriously need training somemore. Because honestly, I kindof suck at the game.
I want PAPA to be a huge smashing success. I want to do my pub stuff well. I want to devote time to reporting and writing. I want to write Chinese articles. I want to have the time to sit and stone a bit. I want to go home and just sit with the family.
And it sucks even more that when I reach home, I see piles of accounts for my Dad on the box. Then, when he comes back, he asks me to do stuff. And, I'm like, ok ok loh. Though i get paid. But....poo...
This year's letter to Santa Claus would be a sad one. blah. and I have no time to buy stamps somemore. Puff.
I wonder why on msn they don't have the "very busy" status, or "extremely busy" or "I need more time!"
Baaaa....it really feels great to write everything down. Now it's time to work. Jiayou Ah Moon! I rock big time. Next time, I'm going to be a really good journalist, work long hours and not fret. Because I've had all the training in the world. And Christmas is coming. At least there's a mistletoe on the door. Not so miserable after all. And it feels great to see Jiamin and Simin. At least I feel great when I see them.
finished rambling
7:56 AM <3