my alter ego: the rambling nerd

2008-04-27T01:47:00.000-07:00

Pardon my frivolity.

http://www.packasuitcase.blogspot.com

Yes, I've moved.

2008-04-23T03:42:00.001-07:00

It has only been a day and I am finding meaningless existence...well...meaningless.

You reckon it's time to find some activities when the only happenings you can recollect in your day are: 1. refusing to get out of bed when it's already 11am 2. sneezing while wiping off the dust on the desk 3. chewing on a corn and 4. desperately trying to balance a pillow on my head, shaking my head like a Bollywood fella, and then again desperately trying to laugh at my own antics.

Yes, I know the exams are over. And it is for rejoicing. But, it seems that there are certain withdrawal symptoms I can't kick off. Like how SSM would point at me with an accusing finger, "There, this girl loh, this girl likes exams."

And I plead guilty.

Now, tell me, what should I do with my life?

This is just so sad. Fortunately, I find consolation in this adventure of epic proportions in a book I've banished yet pick up again yesterday night. I actually stopped where it was most exciting. Now I'm revelling in all that excitement man. Plus I have a museum visit tomorrow.

Trying very hard,
Moon

2008-04-22T23:17:00.000-07:00

the adventure starts here

and the story is getting exciting as the pages flip

2008-04-12T03:16:00.000-07:00

As the dreadful birthday approaches, signs of ageing starts showing up.

I'm now burdened by this problem of a persistently aching and cracking knee, which seems to be a premonition for rheumatism. Simply because it predicts the rain.

There is no real empirical evidence that points to my hypothesised cause yet, but we shall find out when I visit the resident doctor when I feel like it. That's when exams are over.

Meanwhile, a miserable SalonPas, medicated oil should do the trick.

A Limping Moon

2008-04-10T23:14:00.000-07:00

I keep forgetting to get the papers.

By the way, I'm exiling myself in the room this weekend. Let's hope family warmth and productivity are inversely related.

I love talking while I walk. Basically just love talking. So I shall talk to myself this weekend while I do my work.

It's a deal.

Full of Ramly shit,
Moon

2008-04-04T19:53:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel like I like the life I'm leading now, 2 days with home, and 5 days away.

I don't dread home. Instead, I'm deeply, truly, in love with it. And that makes the absence from it sweeter.

I smile on the train back home.

This week, I'm talking lesser at home. But it's good to spend some alone time with mom. Sisters are away, and they are the ones who keep me talking.

But it's good, at least I can concentrate on the books.

Which is so killing me.

2008-04-04T19:46:00.000-07:00

As the exam dates near, I feel that it's time for a panic attack!

2008-03-29T07:31:00.000-07:00

I saw fruity tuan today.

It was so surreal. because we were on our way for COM206 shoot at Boon Lay.

Thought eyes were playing tricks.

and we chanced upon Skoric at Macs too.

One more shoot tomorrow. because of some dumb reason.

though filming was fun today, with all the dumb stuff that K, Thad and Cheryl were coming up with

2008-03-27T18:46:00.000-07:00

不空了。

但却好像还是少了什么。。。

虽然会被逗笑，会逗人家笑，但笑似乎不代表什么。

可能只是灵魂突然厌倦了我，决定出窍。从出窍到回魂之间，又可能半途被盗贼抢去了灵魂一部分。

谁？盗贼是谁？

突然想起杜甫的《茅屋为秋风所破歌》里的“南村群童欺我老无力，忍能对面为盗贼”。被抢去的到底是什么？

呜呼！

2008-03-26T01:51:00.000-07:00

It dawned upon me that my blog title is unfitting since I'm a downright rambling nerd. It is no longer my alter ego. Maybe, then, I was pretending to be an intellectual introvert. Which is so wrong.

Nonetheless, not changing it yet, till a better name comes along. There are plenty of them, so choice plagues me now.

Someone is going to start a "Political Awareness Club" in school and as politically-enthusiastic individuals, we were targeted. I left my name, just curious. Curious whether they had the capacity to convince me. But, I think not and I hope not. I still love the kind of cosy discussions I engage in with random individuals. Something so on purpose is not for me. But still, I left my name. Still.

Seminars and discussions sounded boring. The man did not look intelligent nor sound intelligent. Instead, he came across as desperate. for attention?

But he mentioned Cherian George. And Prof Ho did too, today. So many oral citation counts. "Publish or Perish", says Intan.

Ignore the gibberish.

I was going to blog in Hokkien. So I am going to blog in Hokkien. From now. now.

Wa si hokkien lang. Wa hi bang wu zi jit, wa eh sai yong Hokkien sia gua, sia poem. Yin wee Wa si hokkien lang. Gin jit xi gang bo gao, wa ai ki kua bai fen bai, mai ga li nang gong ah ni zue. Gong ah ni zue li nang ma mng zai wa lo gong si mi.

kua si mi kua. li go kua wa poke li eh bak jiu ah!

(Translation: I am Hokkien. I wish that there would be a day when I can write Hokkien songs and poems, because I'm Hokkien. Today I do not have enough time, I need to watch Entertainment 100% aka 娱乐百分百. Don't say so much. Say so much you also don't know what I talking about.

See what see. Still see I poke your eyes ah!)

On a side note, here's a photo essay by NYT worthy of your 5 minutes:
A Rally Turned Violent in Nepal

2008-03-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

some poem i scribbled on my palm during my ritualistic escapade:

the rain pounded
pounded furiously
on the red canvas
& yet all was quiet
it seems...

only the faithful sound when pen meets paper

2008-03-23T01:39:00.000-07:00

I went searching for my long lost calf muscles at the gymnasium

though I didn't manage to find them

came back with a few more strands of udon in the tummy

2008-03-20T20:54:00.000-07:00

I screwed up my presentation.

Moon: "Erm, maybe we do not exist in this world."

*Laughter in some corners of the tutorial room*

Maybe, if I had said that sentence with a little more conviction, people would have believed it. No, or maybe they would have thought I was mad.

I already knew the message wasn't that clear, the topic and theme too heavy for 6 photo stills. But I hate to give up the chance of making others see what I think, through my photos.

So I chose to sacrifice my grades.

That was why when someone asked, "What's the topic you're doing?", I tried to hem and haw through it, to escape saying "existence".

I still think maybe we do not exist at all.

With conviction.

P.S: Weird stuff are happening recently, and they are such sad irony.

2008-03-18T21:07:00.000-07:00

We were talking about old times at Can B.

浪漫主义思想of LEP guys, and how we admire their guts.

Zhang Jin Han and the 曼伟jokes.

and more...

I actually miss the cheena-pok days we had.

of 宋词、唐诗、小说、《茶馆》and beloved 《红楼梦》

We should just go live in China. (random)

2008-03-15T05:50:00.000-07:00

这辈子可能都嫁不出去了！怎么办？！？！

LOL。

气死了，not only I cannot get attached，the stupid email分明和我作对，please get attached。

2008-03-14T12:26:00.000-07:00

因为刚写完稿，所以心血来潮，好吧，就来一段中文的！

MSN nick 好搞笑，从“稿什么鬼”变成“稿到一半”。真正写完稿后，就把它换成“稿完了"吧。对不起，脑袋瓜里不干不净的，被那个AHSEOW影响了。

今天，身兼两职，帮JM报导OMY，又帮NYCHRON摄影。对不起，是昨天。。。现在是3am了（LOL。3am）。等一下，6am还要再到SRC去，真是折腾人！但是，为了陈劲禾的sports article，黄伟曼得做个负责任的好人。HAHA。我们刚刚真的聊开了，没完没了的，现在，那个女人应该在她“比较远的HALL”吧。

嘴馋，和四楼女人男人到“太阳”去买ICECREAMU。Magnum是好吃的。在SRC聊天也很爽。比江爽还爽。（Laugh吧，陈劲禾）

然后又和HANMING拿了一串ＨＯＫＫＩＥＮＧＵＡ。。。好听！

今晚不睡了。

Ｌｏｖｅｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅ，
为理想饿死的黄伟曼

2008-03-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

How I wish....every sentence that were to come out from people's mouth would be something intelligent.

How I wish...people would come straight to the point and not beat about the bush.

How I wish...everyone would just speak their mind and not hide anything

How I wish...words were not used wrongly and people who have NO grasp of English speak Chinese instead (or keep their mouth shut).

How I wish...people were more concerned about the world.

Yah, I wish only mah...

2008-03-07T06:46:00.000-08:00

He is definitely a great orator. And I see why he inspires the young Americans, because his speech-making abilities is truly inspiring. truly.

I do not agree that a good orator is someone who talks big, but does nothing. He can be a good leader. I do believe.

'Yes We Can', might it be another 'I Have a Dream'?

The song and vid is brilliant too.

-Lyrics-

It was a creed written into the founding documents that declared the destiny of a nation.

Yes we can.

It was whispered by slaves and abolitionists as they blazed a trail toward freedom.

Yes we can.

It was sung by immigrants as they struck out from distant shores and pioneers who pushed westward against an unforgiving wilderness.

Yes we can.

It was the call of workers who organized; women who reached for the ballots; a President who chose the moon as our new frontier; and a King who took us to the mountaintop and pointed the way to the Promised Land.

Yes we can to justice and equality.

Yes we can to opportunity and prosperity.

Yes we can heal this nation.

Yes we can repair this world.

Yes we can.

We know the battle ahead will be long, but always remember that no matter what obstacles stand in our way, nothing can stand in the way of the power of millions of voices calling for change.

We have been told we cannot do this by a chorus of cynics...they will only grow louder and more dissonant ........... We've been asked to pause for a reality check. We've been warned against offering the people of this nation false hope.

But in the unlikely story that is America, there has never been anything false about hope.

Now the hopes of the little girl who goes to a crumbling school in Dillon are the same as the dreams of the boy who learns on the streets of LA; we will remember that there is something happening in America; that we are not as divided as our politics suggests; that we are one people; we are one nation; and together, we will begin the next great chapter in the American story with three words that will ring from coast to coast; from sea to shining sea --

Yes. We. Can.

Celebrities featured include: Jesse Dylan, Will.i.am, Common, Scarlett Johansson, Tatyana Ali, John Legend, Herbie Hancock, Kate Walsh, Kareem Abdul Jabbar, Adam Rodriquez, Kelly Hu, Amber Valetta, Eric Balfour, Aisha Tyler, Nicole Scherzinger and Nick Cannon

2008-03-06T17:17:00.000-08:00

This was what I submitted for my photo montage, not impressive, but will suffice:

VOICES OF A SINGAPOREAN. Yup, i guess that's the title

2008-03-03T03:50:00.000-08:00

I buried the lead, gosh. But, I'm pissed coz I kind of purposely buried it, for fear that the NUS counsellor might not like it. To be polite to someone who granted me an interview.

And, fear shouldn't appear in a journalist's dictionary.

So, there.

But, im over it.

Today, something funny happened during HA205 tutorial. Jan was giving the presentation, someone came in halfway, left the door open.

Then, he paused, and asked Prof Ho: "Sir, can we close the door? Since we're talking about politics here."

Me and Siti were laughing about it at the CS benches later, and I exclaimed that PAP won't be walking past the door, since our tutorial room is like damn ulu and right at the end of the corridor.

Now, I don't even bother to check the room number. I just walk straight to the end.

On another note, due to the hype regarding the escape of Mas Selamat, I feel like being a prankster and leaving something like 'Mas Selamat Found' on my MSN personal msg.

Though I decided against it.

2008-02-28T22:47:00.001-08:00

Disappointingly, I did not pass the writing test.

And I have a premonition that A levels results count a lot in their decision-making, unless my Chinese standard deteriorated so badly that there's a serious discrepancy between this and my previous test.

Because the questions were the same.

Now, it's just dismaying coz there's no perfect avenue I can direct my passion for writing in, maybe except blogging now and then.

I guess in the near term, no more attempts at scholarships and...free money.

I shall concentrate on honing my writing skills, especially my chinese writing. There's a high possibility I'm losing the knack for writing well in Chinese due to the dearth of practice opportunities.

Though I can now definitely type fluently in English.

2008-02-28T06:12:00.000-08:00

Just today, my legs took on a new life of their own and threatened that they'll break away if I persisted on walking.

And I walked on and on....

just for 4 stupid frames.

Didn't get them in the end, oh well.

I went as far as Bukit Gombak for the interview, but am truly glad that it lasted long enough, for me to not have regrets.

This recess week really do suck, save for the fact that I'm at home, binging on good food.

:)

2008-02-26T04:25:00.001-08:00

I'm finally getting a well-deserved rest tomorrow, since for the past few days, i've been going places. Today's paintball was not that bad, but I would choose night cycling over paintball any day. Maybe it's the company, though i'm not complaining that Yingying is bad lah...you rock gal. LOL

though half the time i didn't know whether i shot what i intended to shoot. me fail shooting one ok.

Anyway, I think i've depleted all my luck. Couldn't find the MP and had to settle for PPIS social worker instead. I know it's better than nothing, but travelling to Bukit Gombak for a 20 minutes interview is no joke. Maybe i'll drop by IMM, settle the buying of the frames, and return to hall to place them in their princely positions.

Linger around and head back.

That will be the plan.

2008-02-24T06:11:00.000-08:00

i keep speculating about wth is happening by reading some people's blogs. and i think i'm right. i'm so going to tell people.

:)

i have a writing test tomorrow, and i think i can pass. i think.

jenadas devan's article today on rhetoric and barack obama is quite interesting, go read.

though i doubt you will.

i went back hall today for barely half an hour, to get my darling home. :) and.....

secrets in the closet can't be revealed

2008-02-23T03:02:00.000-08:00

I have an orh-ceh, albeit a small one.
Though it's better than nothing.

Nobody understands my obsession with orh-cehs. HAha.

Night Cycling was ultimate fun. We struggled to keep up at the beginning, coz we had some novice cyclists. But everyone became more confident in the end, and we were cruising along the roads as it neared the end.

Prata was good. MACs was too. Plus I found out I look damn like a small school kid. Because the MAC auntie only gave me student discount out of the whole group. I still look young loh.

Now for pictures:

2008-02-16T21:21:00.000-08:00

昨天看了赖声川导演的《如影随形》，突然想起了不久前看Jostein Gaarder 的书之后笔下的感慨：

"gasp, it's the end of the year

"Jeppe falls asleep in a ditch...and wakes up in the Baron's bed. So he thinks he only dreamed that he was a poor farmhand. Then when he falls asleep again they carry him back to the ditch, and he wakes up again. This time he thinks he only dreamed he was lying in the Baron's bed." ---Ludvig Holberg's Jeppe on the Mount

"Once I dreamed I was a butterfly, and now I no longer know whether I am Chuang-tzu, who dreamed I was a butterfly, or whether I am a butterfly dreaming that I am Chuang-tzu."---Chuang Tzu

Is reality all but a dream, and tomorrow I would wake up a dream dreaming reality?

P.S: Are you an idealist or a materialist?"

可能是因为读了许多与哲学有关的书，看这部剧更有共鸣，更会被震撼。说它是描述困在“中阴界”的人们的彷徨，倒不如说它是以一句又一句的哲学道理点醒观众。最喜欢警察小姐的角色，即便大家可能都觉得是小角色，使多余的，但就因她是旁观者，更能清楚看见大家的迷惘。

吉儿：“你在这里干嘛？”
警察小姐：“对啊，我们到底在这里干嘛？”

多么聪明的一句话，我们到底在这里干嘛？

Are we living a dream， or are we dreaming up our lives？

表演后，在讲座上，由公众提出问题，导演提到他还不知道他要表达的是不是遗憾。我想，到最后，大家都懂了，都了解了。即使太迟，也都是懂了，了解了。懂了，就不会有什么遗憾不遗憾。因为我们人总是以为自己什么都懂，但其实，我觉得，我们根本什么都不懂。懂得自己什么都不懂，最重要。

“The only thing I know is that I know nothing." ---好像是Aristotle说的

我存在吗，还是仅是另一个人的梦？我现在就处于“睡与梦之间，梦与非梦之间”，也处于虚幻与现实之间。

2008-02-15T05:08:00.000-08:00

I contemplated attending the parliament seating today, but I had lessons, so was confined to the room and limited to the small google box. But it was satisfactory.

This was Tharman Shanmugaratname's first Budget delivery, can't say it was exciting, though there were a few laughs. The ministers were slouching in their seats and some looked really tired halfway through the speech. Every year, it's like that. It's hard to stand those long hours, and the seats do look very uncomfortable. But I would have killed to be there. :)

It was a largely conservative and somewhat pessimistic budget, I thought, though Tharman tried to add a few optimistic notes. Expected growth rate for the next fiscal year was reduced to 4-6% largely due to the state of the global economy. The US's recession plus the credit crunch have largely hit Asian exports and Singapore being vulnerable to global forces, would definitely be affected. We seem to be already feeling the pinch, as everyone has to tighten their pursestrings to deal with the higher costs of living. Increased oil prices and food prices will affect our daily lives, and higher oil prices do translate to higher transport and miscellaneous costs as well.

I guess the most hyped up part about his speech was the emphasis on R&D and innovation, as several initiatives are going to be implemented to boost innovation in certain sectors and industries. Lifelong learning was emphasized, and we'll reap the gains of the top-ups to our Post-Secondary Education Accounts. There were mentions of university and tertiary education.

He did continue the "no one gets left-behind" rhetoric to explain measures to close the income gap and distribute the wealth more evenly. Estate duty was scraped, thought it was good since it meant that foreigners won't hesitate too much to invest in properties in Singapore. Meant a higher degree of certainty. But it largely seems to be targeted at wooing investors and foreign immigrants.

Didn't get a reduced personal income tax, but there's a tax rebate. I doubt this will put to rests grouses of Singaporeans since the high costs of living is living some ppl high and dry. Ultimately, it was planned for the future, but kind of failed to resolve the immediate concerns and problems. Some Singaporeans might be disappointed.

I do find that Tharman as Finance Minister..hmm, not too bad. His finance policies are better than the education ones, oops.

Sharing of surplus though is quite generous. And surprisingly, we'll be having a budget deficit of 0.8 billion this year.

Well,enough of the heavy stuff then.

Yesterday twas' valentine's day, and singles nite out for us.

Love it.

While people were flocking to high-class restaurants for supposingly romantic candle-light dinners, the bunch was more than satisfied to settle for chilli crabs at Big Eater near City Harvest. We ate damn a lot man. And there were satays too...

Seow Si Min was sick so she had to settle for bland 鱼片面。

My head is on the big side. LOL

YiLing is very kiasu when she sees crab

Seow diao me

Satay

and gluttons....

Chilli crabs! We order like don't know how many mantou can. And mantou got no "FEELING" hoho

Neighbours!

Damn unglam.

The girls talking

the mess we left.

Anyway, we were hysterically laughing all the way back. Or rather I was hysterically laughing. Crazie nite......

Could do without boys. HAHA

2008-02-13T00:22:00.000-08:00

I'd say you should visit the Budget 2008 website: http://www.singaporebudget.gov.sg/index.html
The "Be a Finance Minister" game is quite lame though

Budget 2008 will be announced on Friday, and I'm pissed that I end lessons only at 12.30pm. Entrance into Parliament is on a first-come-first-serve basis, and I doubt I can make it on time.

Shucks. And since parliament seatings are always on a Friday, it means I wouldn't be able to catch the budget debates for future seatings.

URgh.

2008-02-12T20:42:00.000-08:00

Thinking of buying the tix for F1 Grand Prix race. Coz im itchin to shoot something different.

And a 3-day race course pass sounds good. See how ba

2008-02-07T07:43:00.000-08:00

this year's new year started on a weird note...

mummy's ang pow was $40.30. damn weird can. trust her to come up with such antics.

we had steamboat at grandma's house. and that machine just won't heat up. steamboat that didn't boil at all. and everything was fishballs. haha.

today, i 背叛 my sisters. agreed to sit at the back of the lorry, but decided against it last minute. wah lao i wear skirt can. then we ended up singing 背叛 for the rest of the day.

some photos:

moi sisters

2008-02-05T18:50:00.001-08:00

The new year is here!!!!!

Wheeeeeeeee

Though i'm still stuck in hall,o politics...

:)

2008-02-02T23:23:00.000-08:00

Project Runway 4's coming to Channel 5. Here comes my weekly dose of desentisising potion...

Though it's at 11pm, really late, considering I usually wake at 5am on a Monday morning.

More of people like Nick V and Daniel V please....

love watchin on TV. Really bored of websurfing.

BTW, I freakin finished my COM204! It looks quite pretty too..in my opinion.

:)Proud.

2008-02-01T18:08:00.000-08:00

As much as I understand the agony some people are going through because of the horrendous assignment for 204, I actually had fun interviewing people on the NUS campus, partly because I had the help of a good ol'chum who brought me around (thanks girl!) and because it was fun just talkin to people. I didn't even mind being rejected. (stupid ang moh)

The interview with Dr Ann-Marie was fulfilling. On-the spot learning. And I also learnt that I had veered a bit off-course and she had to remind me that I should not do any speculations in my report. Felt a bit guilty that I forgot a bit about ethics in reporting because I was anxious to dig out the dirt but it was a lesson learnt.

Met Mavis and saw her guy. Saw Terence and hit on him for an interview. Saw some of the NP seniors. And actually, their campus is pretty similar to ours.

---
And, I officially declare that I love hall life, with those crazy monkeys living two floors below us. Having KFC at the 5th floor balcony was unimaginable before you guys, hahaha. Though we had to leave early, I still say 我们在看同一片天空！

and plus, the KFC was goodie.

New year's coming, and I have work to do on New Year. Gotta interview my aunt's maid. Can't believe this.

But an incentive to welcome the new year, my wardrobe's bursting in excitement with new clothes. You see, me and my sis share our clothes. So it's kinda like new clothes X3!!!!So exciting

2008-01-29T18:55:00.000-08:00

Everything is gettin sooo sooo crazy

I can't even keep up with my own pace.

Drowning in an abyss,
Moon

2008-01-23T07:57:00.000-08:00

girl knocks on door. girl tries to run away. girl misses the drama.

i'm not being sarcastic, i just think omg, so draaamaaa...and i feel bad for seow si min. ok and jac too. aiyah, both are my friends, so i shall just jump out of the picture and dont care.

since simin said "aiyah, moon also don't care one lah"

and it's true. in the sense that in this scenario, i won't get myself involved. though i do still care about the feelings of my friends. it would be great if both of them were damn damn happy now with no worries, but that wouldn't happen, so i can be realistic. ha.

i thought we were quite bad at the cheerleading. just stating the facts. though they did put in a lot of hard work. there just weren't the oomph factor.

all the small things in my life. and there should be bigger stuff. like i could be the Prime Minister worrying about the future of S'pore. but im here worrying about these teeny stuff.

but don't think so much, maybe Hsien Loong is sleeping soundly now.

2008-01-21T04:09:00.000-08:00

that's it! it's the growth spurt pill

I was rambling on and on to Simin when we were walking back from dinner. I was saying:

"You know, I have to know that I learn something new everyday, so that my day is productive (lately, we are classifying our days as productive/unproductive). You know, I have to like at least grow a few inches everyday...And sometimes, there's this something, this something that just strikes you...and you suddenly understand something, and you feel that you've grown a lot....it's like it's like....it's like...ITS LIKE....

TAKING A GROWTH SPURT PILL!!!

2008-01-20T00:50:00.001-08:00

Suddenly thought of something:

Jinhe asked me to look at the Nanyang Chronicle Sports Section and give her some feedback and critique to help the Sports Desk improve. Well, I didn't. But, something kind of struck me suddenly regarding the unpopularity of Nanyang Chronicle among the school population, even though our writers write reasonably well.

Firstly, there's a serious derth of newsworthy happenings in school for us to report. So in the end, I guess the paper kindof reports for the sake of reporting. Sometimes, I really have the feeling that "Hey, that article is solely there for the purpose of filling up the empty space."

Secondly, I sense similarity in the Chron's predicament when you compare it to SPH in Singapore. There's no competition! Maybe some worthy school should set up another newspaper or maybe it could be an independent student's effort. Fight with the Chron for news nuggets! Maybe it'll improve. The SU's Tribune don't count.

Lastly, few writers seriously take pride in being a Chron writer, maybe besides the dedicated editors. I confess, I'm sometimes one of them. There are few incentives and perks in being a Chron writer, and point no.1 makes it worse. Who would want to take up a boring assignment? Everybody wants a piece of newsbreaking action!!!

I hope no editors or Chron people take offence. I just feel like ranting a bit. I'm kindof part of the Chron Chinese newsdesk and photo desk too. So I'm shooting myself in the leg.

2008-01-20T00:38:00.001-08:00

Maybe I should apply for the SPH Undergraduate Scholarship again?

I badly want to be a journalist. Gosh.

2008-01-19T04:55:00.000-08:00

I finished COM208!!! Brilliant!

2008-01-18T03:28:00.000-08:00

You can ignore my previous post, just a random ranting.

Everyone's nicks on MSN seems to be bemoaning about the nuisance of COM208's assessment of journals assignment. So I shan't complain more about it. The reason why they're complaining would be because they've most probably started on it, and I HAVEN't. So goodness gracious, I'd jolly well keep my opinions to myself.

Anyway, I'm finally home since I have to do some stuff for Dad.:)

Today's dinner was really good, because there were chai dao, onion egg, and jap mushrooms...all my fave. And they're reasonably healthy too. I can't even find time to lament the fact that I'm lacking exercise.

Will be going back hall on Sun. Am really excited to see Jiaying and Li Yuan swim, I hope they're set to be competitors. Damn sadistic, I like to see friends fight among themselves. :)

2008-01-18T02:33:00.000-08:00

Sometimes nobody really knows how I feel, so I cant be bothered to explain.

Really nobody, besides myself. Though I'm glad for the fact that I understand who I am.

Sometimes trying to justify that you're in exactly the same or a worse predicament compared to mine doesn't actually work the right way. I get irritated and feel like telling you to "kiss my ass".

But I'm too evil to tell you.

P.S: I'm in a tired mood, maybe I don't really mean what I say.

2008-01-15T19:22:00.000-08:00

ASSIGNMENT! ASSIGNMENT! ASSIGNMENT!!

2008-01-13T19:31:00.000-08:00

my monday is soooo free...for the moment, since HA205 tutorial hasn't really started. Prof Ho is gone for some overseas conference, I think. Haha, I kinda miss his lessons. :)

Looking through the IRO website, and JIAMIN, we can apply in advance for 08/09 Sem 2 i think! It's nerve-wrecking thinking that I'll be spending life away from home, although it's just nearby Taiwan/China. But I really love the environment in Taiwan, it feels all dif from home, yet there are subtly some similarities. And i like the weather, and the RICE.

I only have lessons at 4.30pm, meeting Rushan at 3 for a VERY late lunch. Lessons this sem are really boring. What's with all the research stuff? I wonder who's going to take the comm research track, but gosh, it already sounds dreadful.

Bein the kaypoh me, I was so interested to read whatever Hall 6 pub wrote about our volleyball team. But, apparently, they took it off and replaced it with something mild. But it's good that they did something wrong, if it reduces the flak and shit people had given us. Moon is evil, omg, i didn't really mean it.

And, ending off with a good note, ginseng cereal tastes good. Yum.

some dumb acts

2008-01-12T03:54:00.000-08:00

orh lu lu and his balancing act on my precious vaio. he's wrapped like a peanut. Hohox.

me tryin to get rid of mr orh. blow blow blow.

These are just some dumb antics me and ms waiting get up to when i get home. :)

Anyway, managed to catch U.K Shyam in action at the track heats today. Wohx.

Damn cool sia

2008-01-09T07:25:00.000-08:00

发现自己缺乏了向人诉苦的本领，只会带着笑脸，掩饰背后内心淌泪的真实。有时，觉得有义务让每个人开心起来，但方法总是错误的。不需要安慰的我，是真实的我吗？我想是吧。。。

总是对人家complain之后，又补上一句“Aiyah，明天会更好！” “加油，Ah Moon！”“不会死的！”那的确是真的我，没有刻意掩饰，没有隐藏，但有时，当个乐观积极的人会有点累。

今天，好想当一个不那么optimistic的人，只想emo一下，不要管我！

终于了解了吗？

2008-01-09T02:51:00.000-08:00

今天，突然发现自己知道的少之又少。

有时候，看得不够仔细，无法用眼睛洞悉，用心灵去感应。原本以为是对的，都是错的。而错的，到底是什么？

人类，在宇宙里就像沙漠中的小沙子。好渺小。。。以为自己大过天，却最终可能被塌下来的蓝天压得倒地不起。

school starts. BIG BANG

2008-01-08T07:05:00.000-08:00

Glad for the fact that school has started. Moon loves school!

Still in the thick of action for IH season. Photo and video almost everyday, sometimes I have to sub my subcommers...sometimes all i do is back up their photos. Sometimes....I just feel like shooting.

Twas' HC809 lecture this evening and I must say it gets intimidating hearing the PRCs speak up in lecture. They do know more about China than us. But Moon won't 退缩 so easily. I'd be there to learn more from them. :) Moreover, always felt that China is an enigma. Definitely want to learn more about the country.

Something Chinese every semester. Keeps me happy.

Not in the writing mood these few days, so my sentence structure is all haywire. Pardon me.

Shit.

2008-01-05T07:26:00.000-08:00

Reading the comments on the shoutbox doesn't frustrate me anymore.

Suddenly, I find it all very funny.

It's so ironical seeing "where's the pride man?" when the niners themselves don't take pride in being residents and starts quarreling among themselves.

I don't see a point in joining in a meaningless conversation and get myself bruised in the process. It's not self-protection, it's just being clever.

I think we need to take a step back, continue to improve on the website( and ourselves) and turn a blind eye to the stupid and seething comments. :)

Like what Harry said, I'm a straight A's student. I'm damn clever can.

So cool

2008-01-04T08:43:00.000-08:00

Show you guys something....

January 8, Class 1: 民族主義與殖民主義
電影欣賞—Project A II
• 徐中約 Ch 1-3
• <晚清民族主義話語>，<民族復興，復興什麼>
January 15, Class 2: 人口，社會，與宗教
電影欣賞—濟公
• 徐中約 Ch 4-5
• 費正清—成長而無發展之矛盾
獨立研究:
1. 關公
2. 科舉
3. 士紳
January 22, Class 3: 朝貢國體系
電影欣賞—鴉片戰爭
• 徐中約 Ch 6-8
• 林則徐致維多利亞女王函,
獨立研究:
1. 川楚教亂
2. 西發里亞條約 (Treaty of Wesphalia)
3. 司法管轄權
January 29, Class 4: 自強運動
電影欣賞—北洋水師
• 徐中約Ch 11-14
獨立研究:
1. 天津條約
2. 中法戰爭
3. 甲午戰爭
February 5, Class 5: 排外與維新
電影欣賞—男兒當自強
• 徐中約 Ch 15-19
• <老問題新視角>
獨立研究:
1. 李鴻章
2. 康有為
3. 庚子新政
February 12, Class 6: 武力與思想革命
電影欣賞—西線無戰事
• 徐中約Ch 20-21
獨立研究:
1. 第一次世界大戰的緣起與結束之因
2. 新文化運動
3. 清黨/四一二事件
February 19, Class 7: 日本與德國
電影欣賞—八百壯士
• 徐中約 Ch 22-23
• <抗日名將孫元良訪問記>
獨立研究:
1. Alexander von Falkenhausen
2. 新生活運動
3. 谷壽夫
March 4, Class 8: 美國
電影欣賞—北京55日
• 徐中約 Ch 24-25
獨立研究:
1. 門戶開放政策/John Hay
2. 陳納德/史迪威/斯諾 (Edgar Snow)
March 11, Class 9: 蘇聯
電影欣賞—筧橋英烈傳
• 徐中約 Ch 26-27
• <孫中山致蘇俄遺書>
獨立研究:
1. 中華蘇維埃共和國
2. 庫里申科
3. 珍寶島事件
March 18, Class 10: 台灣問題的起源
電影欣賞—梅花
• 徐中約 Ch 30-31
• Danny Roy, Ch 1-2
獨立研究:
1. 二二八事件
2. 聯合國二七五八號決議案
3. 千島湖事件
March 25, Class 11: 海外華人
電影欣賞—少女小漁
• 徐中約 Ch 34-35，37
• ,
獨立研究:
1. Lan Fang Republic
2. Rock Springs Massacre
3. 法輪功
April 1, Class 12: 崛起的責任
電影欣賞—Sometime in April
• 徐中約 Ch 41-42
•
獨立研究:
1. 中非合作論壇
2. 蘇丹的達富爾問題
3. 中國毒玩具

Cool eh?

New year?

2007-12-31T23:45:00.000-08:00

Countdown to 2008 was pathetic. The first minute of 2008, I announced " 我终于算完帐了！"

Didn't feel like a new year at all.

But still, happy new year...

"Why does everything falls on a Thursday?
Why does everything falls on a Thursday?
Oh why why why does every......thing falls on a Thursday?
Dum dee di dee Dum..."

每天一个打击

2007-12-30T23:30:00.000-08:00

真搞不懂，为何在接受一个称赞之后，总会要忍受多一个批评。一定要有个平衡点吗？

告诉自己，要虚心听取别人的批评与意见，自己总有不足的地方，进步的空间。也庆幸自己身旁的人总乐意做我的跳板，让我踩在他们身上，跳跃，跳得更高，更远……

其实打击不大，但看到批评，一定会有莫名的失落感。但Down之后也只有Up，只有把自己弄得更好的余地。不是吗？

XOXO
虚心向上的黄伟曼

life's a dream

2007-12-28T22:36:00.000-08:00

gasp, it's the end of the year

"Jeppe falls asleep in a ditch...and wakes up in the Baron's bed. So he thinks he only dreamed that he was a poor farmhand. Then when he falls asleep again they carry him back to the ditch, and he wakes up again. This time he thinks he only dreamed he was lying in the Baron's bed." ---Ludvig Holberg's Jeppe on the Mount

"Once I dreamed I was a butterfly, and now I no longer know whether I am Chuang-tzu, who dreamed I was a butterfly, or whether I am a butterfly dreaming that I am Chuang-tzu."---Chuang Tzu

Is reality all but a dream, and tomorrow I would wake up a dream dreaming reality?

P.S: Are you an idealist or a materialist?

HO HO HO

2007-12-23T03:07:00.000-08:00

Feels great to be back home, though I always hate to see my Dad, because it usually means more WORK!!!

Haha.

But I kinda slacked the day off, wakin up at 1pm, and watchin the Star Awards rerun. When i have tonnes of work waiting...

But it's ok. Take it as a reward for Christmas.

Saw the Christmas article in Life! Straits Times, so identical to mine in OMY. Hoho, I have 先见之明. Or maybe they copy me. Baaaa...

:) Love spendin Christmas...especially.....

Though i didn't get many presents for my friends, but they won't blame me eh....I assume.

Christmas is love.

888

2007-12-12T05:25:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone,

do support the PAPA site...hoho...

there's a link at the blog sections...:)

writing to cure

2007-12-11T07:56:00.000-08:00

Felt so "in-the-dumps" when i came back from papa meeting tonight. Then, I reached my doorstep, rummaged through my messy bag for the keys, looked up and saw a mistletoe hanging on the door. Must be Ms Roomie, Seow Si Min. I guess the act didn't mean anything, but I felt so much better after I saw it. It suddenly feels like Christmas.

I guess, it's because of the huge contrast. I was walking along orchard road before the papa meeting, and I saw the glimmering lights, the beautiful displays, and all I could think of was what to report for my omy article. It's so pathetic that I couldn't feel the Christmas deep down in my heart, because I usually do. (And they don't believe Santa Claus exists, hahahaha)

On my return trip on bus 199, I cried a little. It feels a bit like the bouts of depression I had during those campcraft training days. When I leaned on Yuan's shoulders and cried, when I started alternately laughing and crying. It was the same feeling. Coz I looked through the pub schedule and all my schedules for december and january, and discovered that everything wasn't in place, at least not where I want it to be. Unless I can split myself into two. It wasn't even the case that I was busy all the time, it was the problem that I can't be two place at the same time that's causing the headaches. When I went to Junfeng's room just now, I told him a little about how I couldn't fit boggle trainings into my schedule, and he told me to not go for some of the matches so I could train. I reached my room, thought for a while "Hey, that's a reasonable idea." But then, I thought, if I had the time off from the matches, my first priority would be to upload photos, do my omy report, write articles, and do papa planning. Shucks. So screwed.

And, I seriously need training somemore. Because honestly, I kindof suck at the game.

I want PAPA to be a huge smashing success. I want to do my pub stuff well. I want to devote time to reporting and writing. I want to write Chinese articles. I want to have the time to sit and stone a bit. I want to go home and just sit with the family.

And it sucks even more that when I reach home, I see piles of accounts for my Dad on the box. Then, when he comes back, he asks me to do stuff. And, I'm like, ok ok loh. Though i get paid. But....poo...

This year's letter to Santa Claus would be a sad one. blah. and I have no time to buy stamps somemore. Puff.

I wonder why on msn they don't have the "very busy" status, or "extremely busy" or "I need more time!"

Baaaa....it really feels great to write everything down. Now it's time to work. Jiayou Ah Moon! I rock big time. Next time, I'm going to be a really good journalist, work long hours and not fret. Because I've had all the training in the world. And Christmas is coming. At least there's a mistletoe on the door. Not so miserable after all. And it feels great to see Jiamin and Simin. At least I feel great when I see them.

O Bad Day

2007-12-03T05:17:00.000-08:00

It obviously hasn't been a good day.
Me and weitingxiaomei attempted to get our haircut at Hair Profile only to find the shutters down on us.
The the cinenow card won't work.
Now the cough has evolved into an asthmatic one.
The inhaler doesn't work magic, the effect lasted only for a while

Then the work is piling....

:(

2007-12-02T01:31:00.000-08:00

Feel so wasted now. I have been in bed for too long. Gosh. Keep drifting in and out of sleep. Though i hate the feeling I always get after having medicine, can't deny that this time round, i need the doctor. Told Hongwei and Junfeng won't be going for the meeting.

Can't understand how to do the cpf e-submission for my dad. Guess i have to check with him when he comes home tonight.

Was planning to get a haircut, but im not in the mood to do so. Was planning to go shopping at Vivo tomorrow, but i've landed myself in this state.

MAKE ME WELL SOON!!

Anyway, the reason I'm sick could be, 8 hours non-stop kbox haha:

Before the kbox session, me and Simin went to watch Doraemon, which was really good. There was a cool rustic and vintage feel to the movie. I was telling Si Min that the movie should be in Jap but she replied that because we had always watched Doraemon in Chinese, it has a personal feel to it. Somehow, I agreed since it really brought me back to the days when I watch episodes after episodes of Doraemon on the tv screen in CHinese. It kinda feel more intimate this way.

We went to the esplanade library too to browse through some old Chinese movies and books..and on our way we passed this installation done up by little kids. Couldn't resist cam-whoring:

SSM the comp geek

Moon the brilliant painter

I laughed like mad over this, imagine this, ssm's shirt clashes with that of the mannequin

baby ssm and baby moon. SOO cute...

SSM the mad scientist

Ms moon attempting to climb....stairs

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Gosh, lookin at all these photos, i was still so healthy then. Now, i'm like some bedridden faggot. Shucks.

the girl who did not leap through time

2007-11-28T06:29:00.000-08:00

momentarily, we though we leapt through time with the girl
didn't expect it to be a romantic love story, but the experience is marvellous.
and my sis, gosh, she wants to repeat the whole story again...
can't even remember the girl and guy's names...
all i know is....she was leaping.........
through time

timetable disaster

2007-11-28T00:16:00.000-08:00

It's the time of the year again...
I'd hate to say this, but i really dread planning my timetable, because:

No.1: it's so uncertain, you're not even yet guaranteed the courses that you're planning for.
No.2: almost everything, anything clashes
No.3: looking at all the late days, it makes me dread school

The one comforting thing is the slots for HA205 is 75 instead of 60. woos. Cross my fingers i get it. :)

It's amazing how I always factor in whether the classes will clash with 娱百. I'm a moronic tv addict.

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Anyway, we went for this auction dinner for the dua pek gong temple yesterday, and how aghast i was when i saw my dad blew a over 2000 bucks for a big huat kueh, a pack of "lucky rice" and a necklace. Let's hope dua pek gong por bee us and let us strike 4D. hoho.

Though i'm very much against spending so much on such stuff, since these money could easily buy me many beautiful tops and dresses, I can't do anything to stop my dad. It's his money. Although auctioning processes are fun fun fun

the food weren't that good though.

stuck in "exam" mode

2007-11-25T20:32:00.001-08:00

I've finished my revision for HC102, and this time round, the study period is so damn long that I yearn for every in-between period for papers to be this long. Because, seriously, it's damn shuang.

Though you kindof don't feel the stress and it's hard to push yourself to do more than you ought to do.

Saw the class schedule, saw Jiamin's blog and she has an inkling of what she's gonna do next sem le. Haha, choir module?!?! I definitely want to vie for the "limited-edition" PA module that Prof Ho is offering, gosh, 60 places only?

I love PA. I think i'm dropping the decision to minor in Chinese to do a minor in PA. People think its more relevant too.

Suddenly feel like museum-hopping. Yet, it's going to be illegitimate if i do it now. Shall suffer the withdrawal symptoms first and select a day after exams officially end to embark on a museum-hopping trip. Maybe drop by at the esplanade library too. The "Arty-farty" vibe got me..

pseudo-vacation mood

2007-11-20T20:58:00.000-08:00

i have 6 days till the next paper.
So the plan was...
wake up late today. woots 10am. (baaa...doesn't look that great ah)
watch some youtube
surf a bit
read a little

it's really like a pseudo-vacation
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多一个星期。。。就真的可以大喊：“我放假了！”

2007-11-15T00:15:00.000-08:00

didn't manage to finish my COM203 paper
couldn't think properly in such a short time
and under exams conditions
gosh

short nails are irritating
im suffering from exams anxiety
cant help biting off my nails
i thought i quit that long time ago?

fighter

2007-11-11T07:12:00.000-08:00

to my fellow coursemates.....

FIGHT ON!

evil by nature

2007-11-10T19:02:00.000-08:00

my eyes skipped to that line...
my heart leapt a joyful beat...
it shouldn't
i must be evil by nature

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can't believe i'm capable of gloating over another's misfortune
i'm so self-centred
sometimes i wonder whether i should hate myself
---
i bet tonnes of people out there hate me for who i am, or for who i'm not

damn

2007-11-06T21:45:00.000-08:00

chattin on phone

so sinful

unstoppable

2007-11-06T07:34:00.000-08:00

have just done an "Alfian-bin-Saat"

gosh, why can't I just keep my thoughts to myself?

ihg schedule

2007-11-01T18:03:00.000-07:00

i was more or less prepared for a really hectic december
but seeing is believing
jus the sports schedule is shock
more to come then...

i would miss my mummy, really.

Photos

2007-10-31T23:54:00.000-07:00

couldn't stand the withdrawal symptoms:

限制。空间

2007-10-31T23:12:00.000-07:00

因为有限制，所以缺少空间。

但却总能在有限的空间里造出空间，抵制限制。

但这小空间如又被限制，我们还有能耐在寻找更大的空间吗？

在限制下，空间到底更大还是更小？

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言论自由到底是什么？

联合早报关于Alfian的新闻纸只有一则，而言论版里关于377A立法的文章都写得很保守。这真正反映了华人学者的看法吗？为什么Straits Times的言论版总是比较活跃？是因为早报读者较传统吗？

upset

2007-10-31T06:27:00.000-07:00

im appalled at how politically apathetic the people around me are.

of course im not talking about the sci people, i know you guys are not.

it just upsets me when people either not know or don't care

to think i used to defend them

gosh

Paparazzi 08

2007-10-30T06:11:00.000-07:00

something that occured to me during the meeting: "Ah...so Alfian drinks coke."

I'd always thought coke drinkers were way better than pepsi drinkers.

So he left a good "first" impression.

It's amazing how everyone seems to have tried wiki-ing him. Kaypoh SCI students

Don't blog about politics lah!

2007-10-29T06:30:00.000-07:00

We had our first lecture for Media Law and Ethics today by Prof Cherian George and Prof Pieter Aquilia. I don't understand why, but as we delve further into the practice of the media professions, the "climate of fear" heightens. One of my "before-lunch" topics with Jiamin and Jinhe was "disilusionment regarding the practice of journalism". Jinhe was recounting how one of her friends who was very passionate about being a journalist decided against it after attending the series of lectures. She said she was disillusioned by her disillusioned friend.

"Slander" and "libel" have always been in my dictionary, but I now understand the techinical definitions and the grounds for contention. Yet, this new-found knowledge isn't a form of consolation. Instead, I feel further impeded by the limitations of the pen and the paper. It seems that you can't put all your bubble thoughts on paper, someone will burst it eventually if the bubble isn't the colour he/she wants it to be. Same applies for the rest of the lectures.

Jinhe and me went for Sylvia Lim's forum on "The Constitution, Democracy and Opposition Politics" and something Jinhe said struck me quite hard.

I was trying to prove something that Prof Cherian taught in class. So I asked Jinhe: "Since this is for educational purpose, does that mean that if I blog about what Ms Sylvia Lim says, it won't be considered libel?"

And Jinhe replied: "Aiyah, don't blog about politics lah!"

Well, is that the demonstration of the legendary "climate of fear"? I don't know, it could well be an off-the-cuff remark. But seriously, we often do come across such apprehension and contemplation before we perform an act of seemingly "going against the government". Impediment on active public dialogue, I would think so.

Anyway, having not read the Singapore Constitution, I was slightly lost. Qi Min presented a really cheem question I couldn't catch. But I love Prof Ho and ...his hair. Haha. He sure has really black hair on top of that intelligent brain of his. The questioning of whether the post of Minister Mentor and Senior Minister in the Cabinet was constitutional was something new. Never thought of it before.

I've always openly supported PAP, since I find the opposition usually very wayang and incompetent in many ways. But, today's talk, well, though it didn't convert me, I was convinced that there are alternatives to PAP, and we should always provide them with the platform to voice their opinions. I do like Sylvia Lim's casual yet confident style, and she did impress me as a competent female leader. We should listen to what the opposition has to say sometimes, and make an informed decision. What do you think?

I think during the speech, she mentioned a phrase which was quite memorable, "running away with the mandate". Think hard about what it really means.

P.S: I say again, I don't think I will be a politician. Being a journalist still beats that.

中国改写嫦娥奔月典故

2007-10-25T02:22:00.000-07:00

为什么这么说呢？

把太空人送上月球，这是新的典故。把太空舰命名为嫦娥一号，还蛮贴切的。嫦娥不是美女，是硬邦邦的现代机器哦。。。

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Though I see no point in a space war. Money wasted for pride and glory. Leaving a legacy, i guess, is the phrase.
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And please, everyone please go visit http://www.kpeunderground.sg/ I was awestruck. The web portal design is awesome. Love it how they managed to make boring infrastructure look and sound glamorous.

Speaking of transport, the newspapers have been infiltrated with spreads after spreads of SIA A380 ads. Gosh, damn rich la. And that Genting entrepreneur Tan Sri Lee sure is influential too with unbelievable number of obituaries. Today's Straits Times was thick thick thick. They must have had a nice day at SPH, big money.

They say SIA is the way to fly, i'd say KPE is da highway to look out for! COOL.

There's a documentary on Channel NewsAsia today on the KPE named "Tunnel that moved a River". Do watch.
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Have been thinking what I want with my life. Big bang or non-existence? I guess I prefer living it the big way.

BIG WAY

P.S: Love 小猪's new hair

阿刁

2007-10-24T09:28:00.000-07:00

我是阿刁！！！！

This is my e-learning teacher. Isn't he cute???

Really is ramblings

2007-10-24T07:46:00.000-07:00

Jinhe and Jiamin thinks my life revolves around politics. I do agree sometimes. I got all excited when I heard that Welyon's topic for impromptu speech was "Patriotism" which is oh-so-political to me. I was more excited than nervous for my China reform presentation, though I feel that I did mess it up a bit due to lack of proper organisation. Love reading the papers, plus reading between the lines to get the political message behind quotes and speeches of leaders. Whollygosh.

By the way, my topic for impromptu speech was "Ambition". Now everyone knows I want to be America's Next Top Model, that I want to "strut my stuff" on the glam runway. And that my favourite pastime is prancing in my room. Another whollygosh. Nerves didn't get to me because I enjoyed babbling without second-thought.

I asked Prof Ho the meaning of scientific development, that rhetorical in the 17th Party Congress by Hu Jintao. He said it was pure political motivation, that Hu wanted an ideology people could identify with when you mention his name. This does sound logical. Suddenly I'm all interested in China. It is an interesting country to study. China's foreign correspondent, sounds good.

Just back from block supper, got a message from Junfeng. Said he forgot bout shooting for his block. Oops, now only 47 got no photos. Die. :O Donuts were delicious. Bite-size reduces the guilt.

An interesting news to share:

this is amazing and absurd. A vending machine skirt!!! It's a vending machine disguise to hide from your pursuers. LOL. Trust the jap to come up with all these quirky designs.

Though, if I was the pursuer, I'd think: "Chey, so easy to see through the ploy!!!"

Quite dumb actually hor.

P.S: Guess i'd go catch The Brave One tomorrow, though the showtime is BADDD

2007-10-21T01:07:00.000-07:00

Surprisingly, Jiamin's spree tendencies are like an infectious virus, and I just caught it. vaaaa...Nobody should have introduced this to me, though I knew bout all these sprees long ago, but seeing Jiamin's fingers busy at work makes mine itchin for some action too.

But luckily I'm restrained in buying. Just one buy. Take it that I'm making up of the lack of ground shopping.

:)

Finally finished horrendous file transfer to Junfeng. Nothing seems to work. I tried filesend and Yousendit, but they all got stuck in the process of uploading. Hate big files. Luckily msn to the rescue, though I won't give it much credit since it's damn damn slow. Sorry, tremendously slow, i mean. (Grins at SSM)

Anyway, some worrying in the house. Coz of the dreadful Secondhand Dealers Act that's going to take effect this December, the trading business sure would be affected. Cross-cheques for all transactions is so not going to work because most of my Dad's buyers and sellers are illiterate and know nuts about cheques. Same for my Dad. It's getting really troublesome and that explains my Dad's lack of sleep lately. It's irritating to know that it's not an iron rice bowl anymore and it gets even frustrating when I recall that he's the sole breadwinner of the family. Though worse come to worse, I just become garang guni and go door to door knocking. Luckily I know how to issue a cheque. *Frowns*

BAAAAA

1142 network

2007-10-18T17:47:00.000-07:00

An excerpt from Jiamin's blog:
ssm hardly ever appears, so that's when this network comes into play. moon occassionally says "you know hor, that ssm siao one. today wake up at 6am to mug."

ahlong gets her weekly dosage of ssm-and-moon's room's updates.

the news comes back to me in our room. (and sometimes we laugh at them.)

and whatever i tell moon about ahlong will eventually go back to ahlong and she will tell me "you today tell moon &!#!$&%&@ right?"

it is so efficient, sometimes the news i get from ahlong is also the news i get from moon on the same day.

i think this network works because we're all kpo and big-mouthed by nature.

=D

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ME LOVE 1142. WE ARE SO DAMN FUNNY.

2007-10-18T00:25:00.000-07:00

It's record-breaking.

I slept for 1 and a half hour this afternoon. I usually only take really short naps.

This must be the most unproductive Thursdays ever. Now I'm left with only 2 more hours for work. Shucks.

Anyway, adhoc photo-taking yesterday was quite fun. I was in an energetic mood, the same cannot be said for today. But I do hope publications churn out exciting informal photos. Though today Jun Feng won't be helping me out with the shooting, hope my camera doesn't screw up again. *Cross fingers*

presentation..

2007-10-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

Sadly, we didn't get our chance to present the speech today. I say sadly, because, all of us half-wanted to get over and done with it and we deeply believe that an additional week would do little to improve the quality of our presentation. Though that's really pessimistic thinking. But the presentation is really sleek and sophisticated, just wished that I could be more natural and spontaneous in presenting my part, I'm always a little reliant on that paper.

The Cool Clean Clan presentation was really impressive and the bubble pink, oh that bimbo colour, was really eye-catching. Cool and humorous. Really captured our attention. Our presentation is less fun. But i think we'll do good.

This week seems more relaxed. Maybe it's just the start of the week and the stress hasn't set in yet. In the holiday mood.

好笑的录音报告

2007-10-13T19:43:00.000-07:00

HC102的录音报告，我和两个妹妹临睡前的对话，保证你笑到暴！！！

A：这个，《非卖品》跟《节拍器》很难唱，《非卖品》的。。。还有那个before《非卖品》的那个。。。

B：“Go，go，sister。。。”

A：《冷暴力》actually is 有一些parts蛮难的。。。

B：“唧唧唧”huh?

A：因为那个《冷暴力》eh。。。《冷暴力》有很多那个“不行”，所以我很难接。。。

B：“偷看我的简讯。。。”

A：“冷暴力搞定你。。。dededededede…啊！dedededededededede

A 和B：Oh yeah!“

A:那个要自己接，如果你要自己唱，你要自己接“Ohyeah”

B：你要做Professional。那种professional是不会唱“ohyeah”的

C：神经病！

B：“唧唧唧。。。”（笑声）好热哦！

A：Amanda的妹妹真的长的很像钰希leh

B:谁是钰希?

C:钰希？

A：啊。

C：涵微？

A：啊。

C：做么leh？

A：蛮像的。只是比钰希还要瘦，then比较美一点点

C：谁是Amanda？

A：我的pres

B：actually right,这样讲hor，根本都不是钰希。。。

A：没有，是有那个感觉

B：感觉不是像。。。

A：她很stone leh，我们看她玩那个。。blackjack

B:哦黄伟曼。。。

C：hn?

B:那个阿信超级超级好

C：什么？

B：他很好。

C：做么leh？

B：他今天一直在《大小爱吃》，他们玩“比手划脚”，然后他就猜，然后after that过后。。他很不慌，他
就站在那里看他们。。。

C：他一脸就是那种正经的样子

B：对啦。他就站在那边猜，而且他很厉害

A：“信乐团”解散？

B：yes

C：huh？什么？“信乐团”主唱？

B：“信乐团”解散啦

C：解散。。我喜欢那个“信乐团”的黑黑人leh

B：Michael？

C：对对对

B：我喜欢“信乐团”的阿信

C：对。他多高？19？

B：本来190.5，长高0.5

C：很好笑loh。

A：他几岁了huh？

C：40

B：是meh?

C:不懂。

B：有这样老了meh？

C：他有老婆eh

B：ahna。。可是不代表他。。。

A：有老婆就要40啊？

C：好，30。

B：可是这样他23就生那个孩子了leh

A：你看AhBen二十多也是有老婆

B：可是没有孩子。

C：他都没有孩子。

B：不可能23他生一个孩子啊

C：黄玮莹，你要去张震岳吗？要跟我讲leh，有没有要跟我。。。

A：不会唱。。。我都不会唱

C：我会唱啊

A：他很dirty的leh，他很vulgar的

C：他唱情歌leh，这次会vulgar到哪里去？

A：他不会唱“我爱台妹。。。”

C：不会啦

A：“。。把奶罩丢上来”，然后要我们丢怎么办？

B：有没有侯佩岑来？

C：没有loh，侯佩岑，你等久久

B：这样他就少一首歌唱了leh

C：他可以唱ma，有我跟他唱leh

B：huh？可是可是有侯佩岑跟MCHotdog leh

A：可以播background的啊

B：可是这样他只唱一点点而已loh。。。一点点。。。因为那个歌basically是分成三段

C：你知道actually hor我可以去访问他，因为《南苑》可以访问，可是呢，我怕他耍大牌然后弄我讨厌他，
所以我不要。。他对记者很坏的leh

B：对

C：超坏的loh，他会那种。。很像。。他会。。。不要跟你讲话这样

A：你有没有读他在8days的那个。。

C：啊，有loh，那个超extreme

A：那个很坏，叫他去听那个CD才来访问他。Why are you asking me this question? 然后他叫他介绍
他的专辑而已也给他骂leh，他叫他like介绍这次的专辑的genre是什么他也要骂。。

C：心情不好

A：“我心情不好。。。

A和B：dedededededededede…“

A:“想你三冥三日，从头到尾把你想一遍（方言）”

B：你不要一直打我可以吗？

A：我很喜欢萧敬腾leh，萧敬腾出专辑我一定买

B：萧敬腾都不红

A：他声音好听。

B：哪里会？我觉得阿信都比较好。

A:黄玮莹 B：黄玮婷 C：黄伟曼

Anyway....
e-services 真的是太方便了。还以为需一大早起来到nlb renew 那三本书，原来只要在电脑上一点击就行了。真棒。

Ang Lee's Lust, Caution

2007-10-07T23:31:00.000-07:00

I told Ru Shan I caught Ang Lee's Lust, Caution this morning and she replied with "Hey, i thought CI people have to boycott that film." Ha, because of all the censorship and we're supposed to be people who embraces freedom of expression, or phrasing it in another way, people who want the right to freedom of expression. Is it a major deprivation then that we're missing out on the juicy bits (the lust parts)in the movie? I don't know. I seriously don't know.

Not knowing..that's because we didn't get to see whether those juicy bits were truly quality parts? It's all hearsay that we're getting from the film critics who got to see the whole thing (how unfair?!?) But, i'm really curious because, throughout the course of the movie, I found it a tad too bland, though the Shanghainese accents and the Chinese mood kind of sucked me in. Didn't like the ending though. Maybe it would be better if they showed the controversial parts, you tend to think, but I kind of doubt so. Don't blame it on the Censorship board before you get the whole picture, I guess. Maybe it was a bad movie after all. OOPs.

Some influence on Ang Lee's directing seemed to come from Alfred Hitchcock, cause I caught a glimpse of that poster for "Suspicion" in the background...if im not wrong. Classy..The suspense, the "wrong man" motive, the presence of voyeurism...a little bit must have come from Hitchcock's films.

Suddenly I'm quite interested in film. I've always been an avid movie-goer, but not the sophisticated kind. Maybe i should just start paying attention.

supposed title: small things cracked me up

2007-10-04T09:54:00.000-07:00

I typed something really long. and found that it wasn't as funny as I want it to be. So i backspaced all of it.

Problem of linguistic abilities, or the lack of it.

:((too many unsmiley faces lately, though I'm actually in a good mood)

杂想

2007-10-01T22:04:00.000-07:00

四面墙的禁锢总比不起心墙的封堵，讨厌往前踏一步，后来又怯懦地往后退三步的懦弱行为，但有时却控制不了自己。

总要提醒自己“自然开心”，但这种情绪只能在 CloseFriends 面前才能曝露。其它时间呢？有时是僵硬的笑容，有时是假意的微笑。这不是虚伪，只是一点的不愿意，加上很多点的无可奈何。

对于摸不透的人，我真想变隐形人，窥窃他们的一切，洞悉他们的人生。。。

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缅甸的局势好像有好转的现象，但也可能只不过是暴风雨之前的宁静。和尚的袈裟染上了鲜血，但血是热的，是有意义的？平民对政治的影响有多大？

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今天是中秋节庆祝会，月亮都缺了，月饼都吃腻了，一点中秋的感觉都没有。把庆祝中秋变成了一种义务，本来热腾腾的心也会冷却。不要把小大人当成大小人，不要玩弄别人的责任感，因为本来想去，有可能会变不想去，因为。。。。不爽！！！

但我喜欢摄影，今天是捕捉影子的好“天”（Good day）

Japanese Reporter killed in Myanmar protests

2007-09-28T01:52:00.000-07:00

Mr Kenji Nagai was still trying to use his camera after he was shot?

I wonder if I were him, I'd go that close. Was it the journalist in him?

Another memorable photo, I wonder which brave journalist took this.

+ all those blood spilling and shooting should stop. It's a peace protest for god's sake. I can't help feeling angry seeing all these reports. And it saddens me because I seriously think Mr Nagai looks like a nice man.

:(

Rename the PIE?

2007-09-26T04:04:00.000-07:00

I'm deeply grateful to those techies in my subcomm because sadly, miss moon can only provide art direction for our online portal. After a few weeks, tech talk still sounds like Greek to me, and css, html, php, ftp blah blah blah looks more like arabic scripts. It's a wonder how these boys seem to grow up with all these acronyms deeply embedded in their world, whereas girls like me only recognise words like Prada, Gucci, D&G. It's a serious generalisation, and I might get slam by tech girls out there, but you can't deny it's true, guys are more inclined to know these stuff. It's called socialisation.

Gosh, those expressway's names must be thought up by some techie guy. PIE, CTE, AYe....It would have been disastrous if you got a girl to do the naming. I would have called them "The Escape Route", "The Tunnel of Love",or even "The Road to Rome". We would always kill to have cheesy terms as road names. It would have been easier to remember too. It's called branding. HAHAHA. (laughing at my own joke, how embarassing)

Anyway, the web revamp is not completely done. We can't really call it a revamp either, because all those are minor changes we've done. Look into it, and see what else we can do. :) Meanwhile, i'm undecided regarding shoppin on Sat. Should I or Should I not????

having a bad stomachache, and life's less than a bed of roses now. :(

SHit!

2007-09-23T02:17:00.000-07:00

(Read at your own risk. Don't be eating something)

so much for toilet humour. I nearly sprain my neck while trying to shit. And it ain't funny at all. I spent an agonising hour in the toilet trying to get da shit out. MY GOD. And they always use "that's a piece of shit" when they're trying to say "that's as easy as ABC." Lemme tell you, this piece wasn't easy, it gave me hell of a hard time back in there.

Just a vent of frustrations.

Editorial meeting on tue finally settled, lucky it doesn't clash with the web revamp meeting. And i've finally finished Jolin's album review. Phew. Anyway, i quite love the new album. It grew on me. And i can't help dancing like siao char bor when i hear that techno song. HOHOHO. Go go sister go go brother. SSM, when we're back in our room, i dance let you see. HAHAHA.

Still wondering if i have the ability to zi high for 3 mins for the GL interview. SHIT!

of Subway dreams and diminishing nightmares

2007-09-22T06:11:00.000-07:00

Eating Subway was a reminder that I was in the comforts of my own home, however absurd it may seem to you. Sweet onion sauce is the epitome of a comforting sense of belonging. Pickles and onions indicated that the choice was mine. The smell of the Italiano bread was a reminiscence of what was old, and a confirmation of what was to come.

It was a week of un-Subway like nightmarish experiences. Studying til the wee hours wasn't the usual practice. Timetable slots were filled and events collided like how trains would. It was blood curdling and brain meshing. It is however, discomforting to know that there would be further replicas of such nightmares. They might become more haunting. I would have to be the exorcist that diminishes these occurences. I can be the exorcist.

I know, being poetic doesn't help matters.

But, dreams are often translucent and nightmares as vivid as the colours of a HDTV.

2007-09-22T05:25:00.000-07:00

it's here for some reason

雨天的尾巴

2007-09-22T02:41:00.000-07:00

I'm head over heels in love with these beautiful lyrics:

陈绮贞-雨天的尾巴
词曲:陈绮贞

雨天的手牵著你的衣袖

雨天的温柔总是选错拥挤时候

雨天的小指头骚动我虚有的乡愁

雨天的尾巴让夕阳牵著走

春天的手帕一拍晒乾的枕头

夏天的温柔躲在你的画框不走

秋天的小指头点亮了小镇的烟火

冬天的尾巴摩擦爱人的双手

雨天的手啊牵著你的衣袖

雨天的温柔总是选错拥挤时候

雨天的小指头骚动我虚有的乡愁

雨天的尾巴拍打浪花一朵朵

雨天的尾巴让夕阳牵著走

我的青春是否你也牵著走

玩字

2007-09-13T00:32:00.000-07:00

写作是一种宣发。

情绪的宣发，感想的宣发。

笔就是我的哈里波特魔棒，纸就是那奇特的魔幻世界。我挥动魔棒，原本空白的世界变得多姿多彩。我是魔术师，而文字是我变出来的把戏。

这一生，好像怎样都离不开纸和笔……

Check this out

2007-09-10T07:37:00.001-07:00

WOH. WAR. I laugh until i stomach ache:

http://www.xs4all.nl/~jvdkuyp/flash/see.htm

2007-09-07T04:02:00.000-07:00

finally found out where Li Peifen will be performing tomorrow night.

:)

Will be shootin at Bedok North tomorrow.

Cheers to great photos!

tech geek alert

2007-09-06T19:10:00.000-07:00

My mum was complainin about me being a tech geek the other day. She thought that the stuff that I do are all boy's play, the gadgets that i deal with are all boys' toys. I couldn't agree more. She gaped when she saw how i managed the tripod with ease, sher gaped when she saw the dua3 gi1 lens i attached to the camera body, she gaped whenever she sees me deal with photog stuff.

Yesterday, Vincent was teachin me all the web admin stuff. Another geeky thing. Im becoming a geek nerd. But all those stuff are kinda easy, once you get the hang of it. Trying to better master photoshop, since all i know now are the basics. But i don't have 7.0 on my laptop, which is a waste, photoshop elements is kinda sucky. (geek talk)

Videography is quite close to photography. At least some of the skills i have in photog can be applied the same way. I hope learnin all these stuff early, i might lead an easier life in cs.

By the way, you should really ask for my autograph, i might be a great photojourn one day and it might come in handy. LOL. Im always jokin that I want to do overseas reporting in Iraq, Afghanistan and places like that (you get the drift), so i might die early (choy), and the photos will appreciate in price.

Seow Si Min has the upper hand, since i leave all my photos and portfolio in the hall room. She might be a billionaire overnight, so stick close to her.

The power of imagination,
Moon.

short sentences

2007-09-03T08:00:00.000-07:00

that's my baby. he's damn hardcore.

the grip is good. the feel is good. overall, im happy with him. it's a him, because it's SEXY. oops. goin mad.

i think i caught the influenza from my afroangel. the virus of short sentences. they're not even sentences.

Great bargains at the comex. thought the package for d40x was way more enticing compared to d80, although i can hardly afford the d80. it might be a case of sour grapes. But im satisfied, really. OKOK, for the time being.

My first project would be for the SPH new media project on Getai photography. More photos on deviant. WEEEEE.

I went getai the other day too. FUN.

Next up would be the Lantern Extravaganza at Chinese Garden i hope. Anyone interested? Ah Hua? SSM? Or any new photography enthusiasts?

Feel like im living the life of a reporter now. Because there are deadlines to meet. Though i earn peanuts, and the deadlines are not really tight. Being part of the SPH and Nanyuan stuffs is really exciting me. Because i just love to write, especially in Chinese. 我是说真的.

JCRC stuff started too. This week. :):):)

startin the new era of short sentences,
moon with love. full stop.

2007-08-30T00:40:00.000-07:00

this week is full of thunders, storms, rain, drizzles and more water.

Especially cant stand the flooding of the toilet.

twas' the rally yesterday.

We gave a resounding YES as an answer to the question.

I said it willingly, however, only apprehensive about the time i have to spend away from home.

Weekends without home would be torturous. But i can make it through all this.

BTW, i made a mistake, homesong stories' sneaks only starts tomorrow. So JP might be showing it after all.

P.S: it's time for war at COMEX

Speechmaker

2007-08-28T02:45:00.000-07:00

I cant believe i have to make two speeches at one go tomorrow.

1. the Aesop's fables storytelling exercise for Speech and Argumentation
2. the rally speech

No.1 would be good practice for No.2

Prof Blaardy Hell says I should pretend everyone is really interested in what I have to say to be a good speechmaker.

Prof Blaardy Hell also says that I should stand shoulder in line with feet, not slouch and present with confidence.

I imagine i'd be like charismatic V.Balakrishnan a.k.a confident politician after a few more practices.

Wish me luck.

me and my crazy idea

2007-08-25T21:37:00.000-07:00

lol. please vote moon.

2007-08-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

When i opened the door to double-check, it was still there.

My eyes are playing tricks on me.

2007-08-23T05:43:00.000-07:00

When i last checked the peephole, it wasnt there anymore.

Paranoia taking over me.

save me from the peril of a hungry, fish-eating creature

2007-08-23T05:36:00.000-07:00

i see the prospect of me getting out of the room unharmed dimmed as the clock ticks.

when you know there's a hungry resident cat around, you'd be wise enough not to dabao fish and chips to your room. yet, im not that wise you see.

Escaped from the cornering by the cat thanks to Melissa's and a french fry's help. Safe in the room, alas, only safe in the room. I NEED TO PEE. I HAVE A MEETING AT 10.30PM LATER!!!! I gotta get out of the freakin room somehow. But i cant.

Yes, im fond of cats, very fond of them, but only as photography subjects, not when it camps outside my room, the constant meowing getting on my nerves, making me paranoid that i check through the peephole every few minutes, only to be dismayed by the fact that IT'S STILL THERE. I cant deal with cats with a piece of fish in the room.

CAN A KIND SOUL OR SUPERHERO SAVE ME FROM THE ENTRAPMENT OF THE HUNGRY CAT????!!!!